Thought Dump.

April 21, 2008

Osterized Emotions.

Even if that's a joke, it still hurts. Jokes, after all, are half meant. It sparked something in my heart. I'm sorry. It's sad. I feel sad. I try. But I can't. Maybe not now, but someday, I will. I hope you could wait patiently for that.

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I guess ranting is one of the few things I'm good at. I feel a bit down, I'm not in the mood to do anything. It's sad. I'm not in the mood to move. *sigh*

I feel a bit stupid in taking everything seriously, but I guess, that's just who I am. Well, at least, I'm being true. I cannot hide anymore. That ability dissolves, when I'm with him. It disappears, but not completely. It's a bit frustrating, though.

Posted at Monday, April 21, 2008 by scarlet_spirit
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April 8, 2008

Hmm.

Interesting. Somebody texted me. He's a guy I knew and made friends with around a year ago. I met him the same time I met Denji. He asked if I already went to school to get my form 5a. Of course, I answered 'not yet'. And we kind of talked for a bit. He asked me if I could still remember him. Of course I still can. Anyway, it's just weird, and interesting. Mommy Rianne told me that THAT guy had a crush on me. or something. Hmmmm. Now what? LOL.

And we don't have a mirror now. My siblings broke it when they were playing with it.

Posted at Tuesday, April 08, 2008 by scarlet_spirit
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I am.

I am depressed, in every sense of the word. This probably may be due to the following facts:

1. I need more materials, and I can't go out of the house.
2. I need to go to the doctor.
3. I need to go to the dentist.
4. I need people to talk to. And I mean, really talk to.
5. I'm tired.

I haven't been eating properly these days. All I take in is coke, chips, cookies, bread, bananas and ice cream. Of course there's the occasional glass of water, tea or coffee and a slice of ham or hotdog. But that's all I can take in. I don't know why. I feel as if I'm going to vomit when I eat other things besides that. Hmm. It's probably my stomach's monthly period.

I'm going to take summer classes, I suppose. They aren't going anytime soon. Well, my dad will.. but the rest will go there in a month or two more. Bah. If they leave, I'm going to be alone again, just like the last time. Well, at least, the difference between this and that situation is, I get to go there every once in a while. Yay me. And I'm more responsible now, I think.

Posted at Tuesday, April 08, 2008 by scarlet_spirit
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